Big Girls Don’t Cry Part Four


“I’m a cage fighter” Blind date one
Sara has been sucking up to me ever since the “ketchup” incidence as we have playfully dubbed it.  I have not heard from Rich since our first and apparently last date and I am really ok with that.  He was definitely nice eye candy but we obviously didn’t click.  Sara has used every kind of excuse she can think of to get me back out there.  “You know that if you just sit at home every weekend you are going to turn into the crazy cat lady next door.”
I laugh because I am allergic to cats and she knows this.  “They are going to bring back that card game Old Maid and they are going to put your picture on all the cards.”  This makes me smile a bit.  She knows I am not mad at her but it is fun to make her think I am.  I have gotten a Grande caramel latte out of the deal every day for the last two weeks so we are almost even.  Now she is trying to convince me to go to dinner with her and her boyfriend.
“Please come to dinner with Tom and I.  All work and no play makes Annie a very cranky girl.  You have to get out of the apartment I think you are growing cobwebs on your girl parts.  We will buy your dinner!”  I give her my best eye roll and smirk at her.  “Really Sara?”  I start laughing again.  “If I go will you stop bugging me?”  She squeals her answer by jumping on me causing us to fall onto the couch.  “I will let Tom and John know we will meet them there.” Whoa.  “Wait a second.  Who is John?  Are you trying to set me up again?!”  She gives me this Mona Lisa smile and shakes her head.  “No silly.  He is a good friend of Tom’s and wants to hang out.  I promise it’s not a date.  So go get ready! I’m starving Marvin.” 
I sigh.  Sara has a big heart and just wants to see me happy and it is the only reason I even say yes.  And of course she will bug me until I give in so really I have no choice.  I throw my curly dark brown hair into a pony tail and check my reflection in the mirror.  My hazel eyes are greener today so I don’t bother with any eye makeup.  Au Naturel.    
When we arrive at the Beachside Bar and Grill I can see Tom at the bar and this tall guy standing next to him.  He has on a black t-shirt and white shorts with a black ball cap.  Nice legs!  From a distance he looks pretty cute but it doesn’t matter because it is not a date.  Sara runs and leaps into Tom’s arms and they lock lips for an uncomfortable amount of time while I am standing here next to John.
“Um, hi.  I’m Annie forgive our friends here they seem to have forgotten their manners.”  I stick my hand out and he shakes it firmly twice and releases my hand quickly.  “I’m John.”  He has a bit of a country accent that throws me off a little because he doesn’t look like a country boy.  He kinds of nods his head at me and I see his hat has UFC on the front.  He has very blue eyes and tuffs of light brown hair sticking out from under his hat.  His smile is sweet and he seems almost shy.  “So what does UFC stand for?”  Tom takes this moment to unlock lips with Sara to answer for John.  “Ultimate Fighting Champion Annie how do you not know this.  He kicks peoples asses for a living!”  John seems to blush at this but doesn’t really say anything.
We order our food and I keep catching him look at me but he won’t say anything.  So it is up to me to make conversation or this is going to be a long night.  “So John, how long how you been an ultimate fighter?”  He smiles and says, “Do you know anything about UFC?”  I shake my head no and he decides that it is his duty to educate me.  “I use mixed marital arts; it’s a full combat sport you know.  I have been in about 2 years now and so far I have broken my hand, fractured my foot twice, had two concussions and sprained three fingers.”
I think this is the most he has talked the whole night and he seems almost proud of his injuries.  He talks for almost an hour straight without interruption and I am starting to zone out a little bit.  Sara and Tom are still sucking face and feeding each other food so they are no help to me.  I see a couple of cute guys at the end of the bar and one of them gives me a smile.  There may be hope yet when I hear my name.   “Annie?  Did you hear what I said?”  I smile at John and say, “no I didn’t get that last part, sorry.  What did you say?”
“I said I am a cage fighter which is like the best of the bad ass things a UFC fighter can be because I use my grappling and striking skills to take down my competition.”  He actually sits up straighter when he says this.  Skills?  Did he just say cage fighter and skills in the same sentence?  Holy hell I feel like I am having a conversation with Kip from Napoleon Dynamite.  “Wow John that all seems really interesting.  Can you excuse me for a minute?  Sara?”  I give her the look of death and she jumps up and follows me to the bar.  “I need to get out of here because John’s ego is getting so big he is blocking out the sun!”  Sara smiles at me.  “Ok, ok but just so you know it wasn’t a set up I swear.”  Somehow I find this hard to believe but I let it go.
We get back to the table and the guys are paying the bill.  “John it was nice meeting you good luck with the cage thing.  Sara I will meet you at the car.”  I walk away and I am almost at the car when I hear my name.  I turn and it is John.  “Do you think that I can you call you sometime?  I really had a good time with you tonight.”  Was he not at the same table as me?  “Oh, um sure.”  I give him my number and he gives me a big hug and walks away smiling.  Well it looks like I have just agreed to a second blind date that I sure hope goes better than this unofficial first one has gone.  Looks like I am getting free coffee for a few more weeks.

Big Girls Don’t Cry Part Three


“I think you sat in something” Blind date number one
          My roommate Sara has convinced me to go on my first blind date with a friend of her boyfriend Tom.  And by friend I mean someone he kind of knows from the office.  She swears he is perfect for me and that we will hit it off well.  “He is a good guy Annie.  He doesn’t kill bugs for a living and he has his own car.” Ouch.  “Ok, ok I will go but you better be on standby alert so if it goes south I can get out of there quickly.”   The rule is she sends a text about 30 minutes into the date and if it is going well I will not text back but if I do she has to do a follow up phone call so I have an excuse to get out of a horrible date.  Is that so wrong?  Maybe, but it works.
          I am getting ready for my date and thinking about what Sara has told me about my blind date whose name is Rich.  He is 45 so he is about 8 years older than me and works for a brokerage firm.  She did show me a picture and all I have to say is damn!  He is really good looking with dark brown hair that has bits of gray at the temples, cut really close to his head and light green eyes that seem to sparkle.  She says he is really into working out and tries to be healthy.  Does she not know anything about me? 
 I am allergic to the gym and I have not met a junk food item that I didn’t like.  Thank God I was blessed with good genes or I would be so screwed.  My hair however is a different story.  Curly, thick and has a mind of its own.  My nickname was Medusa growing up because it looked like snakes coming out of my head.  I know there are women who would kill for my thick curly hair but they have no idea what they would be in for.
          We arrive at the same time at my favorite local seafood place and he steps out of his silver Audi convertible without his shirt on.  He smiles and says, “Annie?”  I nod as I try not to drool and smirk at the same time.  He slips his shirt on with ease and I think he flexed while he did this.  It is kind of funny and hot at the same time.  He shakes my hand and it is firm and warm to touch. He looks over at my 2006 black Honda Civic and kind of gives me this look as if to say are you for real?  I am not into material things.  If it gets me from point A to point B in one piece I am very happy.   “Is this your car?”  His voice is almost begging me to say no.  “Yes it is all mine….no monthly car payments and it gets great gas mileage.” I smile at him as if to say I dare you to say something else. “Oh good for you” is all he says.
          We order a couple glasses of beer and make small talk as we wait for our food.  He talks mostly about his work as a broker and how much money he makes which I find odd.  Who does that?  Who brags about how much money they make when they first meet someone?  Then he starts talking about how his body is his temple and that he dedicates 2 hours a day to working out.  I look at him and I think I make a little noise in my throat like a groan. Seriously?
          “I really think that it is important to be in tune with your body.  Don’t you agree?”  I think he is actually flexing through his shirt and I have to put my hand over my mouth to keep from laughing out loud.  I look down at my phone in my lap and Sara has not sent me a text yet…she is 10 minutes late.  I bet Tom is there and they are performing an encore presentation of the Discovery Channel.  Damn her libido!  I realize I am on my own here.
          “Well sure I guess.  I am not a big gym person I think I’m allergic.”  I wait for him to laugh but instead he gets very stern.  “Annie, if I am even going to consider dating you then you will really need to step up your game and take this very seriously.”  Oh shit I am on a date with a gym junkie.  Fabulous.  And he has to consider dating me?  I think he can see the steam coming out of my ears because he tries to recover quickly by changing the subject.  “If you had $1 million dollars what would you do with it? And why?”  Without missing a beat I say, “I would buy you a monkey.  Haven’t you always wanted a monkey?  Or a gym membership and a new car because apparently they are important to some people”. I stand up and turn to go thinking I totally put him in his place when he says, “I think you sat in something.  Is that ketchup?”
          I wipe my hand across the seat of my pants and look.  Son of a bitch!  Only I can start my period on a first date with a total jerk.  He is looking at me with a mix of dread and cockiness.  “Well is it?”  I laugh and think to myself if I were 25 I would probably burst into tears right now but since I am beyond the embarrassing stage of my life I have no choice but to shake it off.  I sigh, “no, it isn’t ketchup.”  He starts to ask what is but then it clicks and he says, “oh, ok.  I will just wait here.” 
I walk to the bathroom quickly and assess the damage…not as bad as I thought but Rich obviously knows what it is.  When I leave the restroom he is waiting outside the door with two to go boxes with our food in it.  “I didn’t think you would want to stay so I had the waitress wrap them up.”  Oh now he is being nice.  We walk to our cars and shake hands again and he asks me if I like to go boating and I say yes thinking that this is a totally random question.  “Ok great next time we should go out on my boat.  I will call you.”  He gets in and leaves.  I am confused and slightly relieved.  I didn’t have to bail on the date and make him feel bad….my period did that for both of us.  Something tells me I won’t be hearing from him again.  


Big Girls Don’t Cry Part Two


“Should I stay or should I go now?” Date four
I am standing in front of the mirror fixing my hair getting ready for date number four with James whom I have now dubbed the “caveman”.  He has tried to be mindful of what he says but it still surprises me with what comes out of his mouth.  On our last date he said that I get too dressed up to go out to dinner…..ummm really? That I make him feel very underdressed when we go places.  He told me this as we were walking into an upscale restaurant that he chose in a muscle tee, you know the kind that the armpit opening goes down to the waist, acid washed jeans and black Reeboks.  Turns out he knows the owners because they are one of his clients so he can dress in his underwear if he likes. 
I giggle thinking about that now as I put on my make-up.  Thump.  Thump-thump.  Thump-thump-thump.  I pause mid mascara stroke to see if I hear it again.  Thump.  Thump-thump.  Thump-thump-thump.   Yes I hear correctly.  My roommate Sara and her boyfriend Tom are going at it again.  I don’t think they ever leave their room except to get food and water.  It’s like the Discovery Channel in there.  I can imagine the narrator explaining the scene behind her closed door in his best British accent. “The male is lying stretched out quietly unaware that the female is stalking him from the corner getting ready to pounce on her prey.  He lifts his head and suddenly she jumps on him biting his neck to keep him from getting away.  He rolls over on his back to show he is submissive.”
I turn up the radio so I don’t hear the moaning that usually following the thumping and it’s not her moans of pleasure…..yeah it’s like that.  Speaking of the Discovery Channel, James and I have had the “talk” about if and/or when we would get to that stage.  From the first date we kind of agreed that we didn’t want to get involved in anything serious since we were both coming off of long term relationships; me five years and him twelve years.  Staying causal would be the best bet though I have to admit it has been a while so I’m not sure how causal I can keep it even if he is a caveman. 
As I knock on his door I can hear strains of Pink Floyd coming through.  He comes to the door and it looks like he has been sleeping.  His eyes are red rimmed and his hair is sticking up everywhere.  He gives me a peck on the cheek and walks back to his couch like someone ran over his dog.  I sit down next to him and see that he is watching the movie, The Wall.  Oh this is not good.  Whenever he watches or listens to anything from the 80s especially if it’s Floyd he slips into this kind of depression that is hard for him to shake.
“James?”  He gives me this faint smile, “I love this shit but it depresses the fuck out of me.”  He takes my hand and gives it a kiss.  “I’m not up for going out tonight.  Do you mind?  Maybe we can just stay here and have a drink?”   I look at the table and see that he has already started his little pity party for one.  “Oh, sure.  Are you ok?  Did something happen today?” He shakes his head. “No, just don’t know what I am doing with my damn life here.  I’ve been thinking about her today.” 
My stomach does this little flip.  Even though we agreed on casual and I don’t know if I really like this caveman I don’t want to be the rebound.  I walk into the kitchen and grab two more beers and hand him one.  “Well then let’s just not worry about anything else right now.”  One twelve pack later we are tangled in his sheets, kissing and laughing.  I know that tomorrow I will regret this but right now I’m feeling good.  “Annie.  I really like you but I think I’m still in love with her.  What the hell do I do now?” 
Well this would have been good information to have earlier.  Missing someone and still being in love are two different things.  Now the question is should I stay or should I go?  “James you are the only one who knows the answer to that question.  I’m going to grab some water from downstairs.  Be right back.”  I give him a kiss on the forehead.
Five minutes later I am standing in the doorway listening to him snore very loudly.  I have my answer.  I get dressed quietly and leave him a note.  Call her and tell her how you feel.  Good luck.   Four dates in one month and I am back at square one.  I smile as I drive back to my apartment because Comfortably Numb by Pink Floyd is playing on the radio.  That is about how I feel right now.  Comfortably.  Numb.